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Buffy: S3, EP10 - Amends Quote

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 19:15:54 -0400

Angel: It told me to kill you. You were in the dream, you know. It told me to lose my soul in you and become a monster again.Buffy: I know what it told you, what does it matter?Angel: [yelling] Because I wanted to! Because I want you so badly! I want to take comfort in you. And I know it will cost me my soul, and a part of me doesn’t care. I’m weak. It’s not the demon that needs killing in me, Buffy. It’s the man. Am I a thing worth saving, huh? Am I a righteous man? The world wants me gone!Buffy: What about me? I love you so much, and I tried to make you go away. I killed you and it didn’t help. And I hate it! I hate that it’s so hard… and that you can hurt me so much. I know everything that you did, because you did it to me. Oh, God! I wish that I wished you dead. I don’t. [whispers] I can’t.

Angel: Buffy, please. Just this once, let me be strong.

Buffy: Strong is fighting! It’s hard, and it’s painful, and it’s every day. It’s what we have to do. And we can do it together. But if you’re too much of a coward for that, then burn. If I can’t convince you that you belong in this world, then I don’t know what can. But do not expect me to watch. And don’t expect me to mourn for you, because … [Snow falls, blocking the sunlight.]

Buffy The Vampire Slayer Quote from Season 3 Episode 10: Amends.

Snow White Queen

Wed, 06 Feb 2013 21:58:09 -0500

Stoplight, lock the door.

DON’T LOOK BACK…

Undress in the dark, and hide from you…all of you.

you’ll never know the way your words have haunted me.

I can‘t believe you’d ask these things of me.

You don’t know me.

You belong to me, my Snow White Queen.

There’s nowhere to run so let’s just get it over.

soon I know you’ll see you’re just like me.

Don’t scream anymore, ~~MY LOVE~~

‘cause all I want is YOU.

Wake up in a dream, frozen fear…

all of your hands on me, I can’t scream…

I can’t scream.

I can’t escape the twisted way you think of me,

I feel you in my dreams and I don’t sleep…

I don’t sleep.

You belong to me, my Snow White Queen.

There’s nowhere to run so let’s just get it over.

soon I know you’ll see you’re just like me.

Don’t scream anymore, ~~MY LOVE~~

‘cause all I want is YOU.

I can’t save your life,

though nothing I bleed for is more tormenting.

I’m losing my mind and you just stand there and stare as my world divides.

You belong to me, my Snow White Queen.

There’s nowhere to run so let’s just get it over.

soon I know you’ll see you’re just like me.

Don’t scream anymore, ~~MY LOVE~~

‘cause all I want is YOU.

ALL I WANT IS YOU

ForeverandEverandEver.

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Snow White Queen Lyrics.

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Thu, 31 Jan 2013 00:53:29 -0500

"It’s the part of the show where it all fades away When the lights go to black and the band leaves..."

Thu, 31 Jan 2013 00:48:33 -0500

“It’s the part of the show where it all fades away
When the lights go to black and the band leaves the stage
And you wanted an encore but there’s no encore today
Cause the moment is now, can’t get it back from the grave”

- Macklemore, Ten Thousand Hours (via hipstuhnugget)

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Mon, 14 Jan 2013 18:34:57 -0500

Some parents are too soft. If I EVER called my mom a bitch she would be like...

Fri, 11 Jan 2013 15:45:13 -0500

totally-relatable:

Maybe...

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 17:10:54 -0500

MAYBE… If I pretend nothing ever happened it’ll get easier.

If I pretend we never met, the pain will become bearable.

If I look away, you won’t notice that i’m crying my eyes out.

& Maybe, just maybe, if I smile & don’t believe, you won’t realize it’s because of you.

STILL MAYBE… If I see you again i’ll be able to fight the urge to hide in shame.

If I didn’t lose someone so important I wouldn’t be this way.

If I didn’t “fuck up” you would still “love” me.

This make believe, this pretend, maybe, quite possibly it’ll get me through just one more lonely night.

Maybe it’ll be the last.

Oh well, oh well.

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 17:10:18 -0500

“Hello world, I hope you’re listening. Forgive me if i’m young, for speaking out of turn. But there’s someone that I’ve been missing, and I think that they could be the better half of me. They’re in the wrong place, trying to make it right, but i’m tired of justifying so I say to you: Come home, come home, ‘Cuz i’ve been waiting for you for so long. The fight for you is all i’ve ever known, so come home.”

It feels so reckless, almost like everything is slipping away at once.

Don’t you understand?

It’s like this room keeps spinning as I try so hard to find some solid ground.

There’s no traction in anything I do, I can’t get a grip, or catch a break.

Can’t you just let it all roll off your back?

There are a million weights on each of my shoulders, there is a pounding in my chest, and I feel the anxiety start to rise up.

Who have I disappointed this time?

There’s a constant buzz in my ear, a ring of failure.

I wish these feelings would just wash right over me.

Who am I living for anyways?

Is this my life?

I can’t seem to remember anymore.

Being pulled in every direction, never knowing what’s next.

They may say it’s up to me to regain control, but it’s not.

Is this where I build my home?

On this negativity, this feeling of dread every day.

I suppose this will always be my home, even if I wish it wasn’t.

Why can’t I escape?

I am suffocating, feeling so alone, breathing in my own demons.

But I can’t get out, I never want to leave.

What’s wrong with me?

“Losing my mind on a tiny error, I nearly left the real me on the shelf.”

Lately I’ve been wondering how to make this work. I just can’t take anymore, I need to...

Tue, 08 Jan 2013 17:10:13 -0500

Lately I’ve been wondering how to make this work.

I just can’t take anymore, I need to know where we stand.

I need to know what to do.

But I just can’t imagine all the people we would hurt.

Because I hate the way I feel tonight, and I know I need you by my side.

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Thu, 03 Jan 2013 17:20:28 -0500

<3

Sun, 23 Dec 2012 18:07:47 -0500

fuckyeahev: WYW

Sat, 27 Oct 2012 21:16:38 -0400

fuckyeahev:

WYW

HELL YEAH.

Sat, 27 Oct 2012 21:14:36 -0400

HELL YEAH.

Matt, you are amazing.

Mon, 10 Sep 2012 00:50:39 -0400

Matt, you are amazing.

NothingButLost

Tue, 28 Aug 2012 01:23:00 -0400

~~One second.~~

Less than a minute, an hour, a day, even one million days.

But that’s all it took for me to feel his pain.

~~One minute.~~

Less than an hour, a day, or one million days. But more than a second.

That’s how long it took you to rip his heart out.

~~One hour.~~

More than a minute, or a second. But less than a day, or one million days.

That’s all it took for you to be on your way.

~~One day.~~

Less than one million days. But more than a minute or a second.

This is all it took for you to throw it all away.

A million days.

More than a second, a minute, an hour or a day.

That’s how long it will take you to come to your senses.

“You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you’ve forgotten it.
That’s the way the human mind works.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, to shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
But the imprint is always there.”

“We’re supposed to try and be real.
And I feel alone, and we’re not together. And that is real.”

“My love for you still grows

This I do for you

Before I try to fight the truth my final time”

“The imprint is always there, nothing is ever really forgotten.”

"See, we don’t really care who you are. We’ve kind of got this non-exclusive policy of determining..."

Thu, 12 Jul 2012 20:14:09 -0400

“See, we don’t really care who you are. We’ve kind of got this non-exclusive policy of determining exactly who we open up to and let into our family, and then who becomes a part of our united mass or harmony, and that’s kind of become the thesis to this song, because through suffering, acceptance, grief, and strife, there’s no way that your puzzle piece fits into our puzzle wrong, because everyone is welcome on this stage that we call life. And we don’t really care who you are, everyone is capable of looking up and wishing on a star. So catch it, so contagious, this daydreamer’s disease, and hope can be your sword, slaying darkness with belief. And we don’t really care who you are, regardless of how lost you are returning from, regardless of how far, bring me all the worst of your broken, bruised, insane, because that’s the things with music, when it hits, you feel no pain. No matter what you did, I promise we forgave it, when all that’s left is your voice, you’ve got no choice but to raise it. All you broken hearts, all you dejected dreams, just let yourself be free, because even broken wings can fly away.”

- Sanctuary, Paradise Fears. (via notquitewhatitseems)

twloha: This past spring, Jason went on tour with The Cab and...

Thu, 14 Jun 2012 22:54:43 -0400

twloha:

This past spring, Jason went on tour with The Cab and The Summer Set across the US, spreading TWLOHA’s story and mission along the way. During that tour, he met and became friends with some great guys in the band Paradise Fears.

In May, they released a new single “Sanctuary” and accompanied it with a music video, which I really like. With issues like depression and self-injury, it can be really tricky to present them in a sensitive and non-triggering way, but Paradise Fears did just that. Both the song and the video remind me that no matter what we’re going through, it is possible for us to find hope and safety. Although parts of the video are set in the sanctuary of a church, I remember every time I listen that hope doesn’t have to come from a church or even faith.

Hope can have a thousand faces.

The premise behind any sanctuary is that it’s a safe haven, a place where to turn when in the midst of brokenness and vulnerability. It could be the solace of headphones, the warmth of being with friends who know you, in the strings of words from your favorite writers, or just a space where you can soak in the kind of silence that feels like peace. Music can be really powerful and evoke all kinds of emotions, and what I love most about “Sanctuary” is the hope in it. You can check out the song and all things Paradise Fears here.

—Caitlin

"I can feel your pain, I could be your anchor, And I try so hard to be strong enough for you, but..."

Sat, 09 Jun 2012 14:44:52 -0400

“I can feel your pain,
I could be your anchor,
And I try so hard to be strong enough for you,
but the world gets heavy when you’re lifting for two,
I swore it’d be alright, I still promise it is,
and I just kept talking until people started listening,
But the problem with that is people started believing,
Now everybody needs an answer, everybody wants their reason,
Now there’s hundreds of stories, and thousands of letters,
and I wanna tell ‘em all that’s it’s gonna get better,
But the nightmare I can’t seem to shake in my head
is that I’ll lose you in the static of the calls coming in,
What if it was just us? I wonder sometimes,
You know that it kills me when I can’t reply,
If we were only alone in our own little place,
I had this crazy idea — maybe we could runaway,
Maybe just today, maybe you and me,
Maybe we could build a world that nobody else sees,
And I could be the king, and you could be the queen,
And it would never get late, so we’d never have to leave,
And every time it got cold, I’d be the blanket you need,
And you could lay there forever on my shoulder while you sleep,
But that’s not real life, it’s a distant dream,
and we’re still wide awake.
Maybe someday.”

- Sam Miller, Both of Us (cover)

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Tue, 03 Apr 2012 23:24:08 -0400

Still I will.

Fri, 16 Sep 2011 21:12:00 -0400

Still I will care,

still I will be there.

Still I will love you like I always have and still I will try harder than ever before.

Still I will wonder what you are doing.

I will want to say hello, but still I will stop myself.

Still I will want to turn and tell you about today, tomorrow and yesterday.

Still I know I can’t. Still I will want you there, but I know now you don’t want to be there.

Still I will wish, dream, and hope.

But most of all still I will hurt.

Hurt because of all those memories & what could have & should have come.

Hurt because still I will miss you.